The following is a journal entry from my student “Alex” in Escondido.
When I first realized I was pregnant, I was scared. I cried for days. I was always told I would end up pregnant at 15 because that’s what had happened to the rest of my sisters. I did not know how to let my parents know…I knew they would be disappointed so we started by telling my baby’s dad’s mom. She was not happy. Her response was for me to get rid of it…that was the most hurtful thing I was ever told. I knew then and there I needed to let my parents know, so I did. Although they were very disappointed, they agreed to help me until I finished school.
The moment the father of my son moved in was the day my life made a complete change. I went from being madly in love with him to being completely terrified of him. I was being hit and cheated on throughout my pregnancy. I did not want to leave him because I thought I would not be capable of raising my son on my own.
The day my son was born was when I knew I did not need his father around. When Andy was two months old I kicked his dad out and I knew it was what was best for both Andy and myself. Throughout the rest of the time, I received text and messages which said I would never get anywhere in life without him, that I would never find someone who loved me. Guess what, ten months into my son’s life and I have gotten to my junior year, and I now have a boyfriend who not only loves me by loves Andy as much as I do. I have proved to everyone that teen moms can make it in life. Of course, this achievement has been because I got my brothers and sisters who are always there for me. My parents who are also my biggest supporters, my boyfriend who loves me and helps me out with my son and of course my little Andy who till this day has brightened up every second of my day. I am now looking into becoming a military nurse and I can not wait for the day when everyone looks at me and sees that I have given my son everything he can possibly have. My family and of course God have played the biggest role in all this and I am very thankful.
A quote that keeps me going in life is “God gives his toughest battles to his strongest soldiers”. I really hope all girls realize we are the strongest soldiers.
NOTE: Rachel Asman is the Cal-SAFE coordinator at San Pasqual High School in Escondido.